I have been slacking and figured it was time to do an update. You know, a "where is she now" sort of thing. Well... not a lot has changed to be honest. I'm trecking a long. I hit a plateau and unfortunately have been stuck for quite some time but I'm changing things up in hopes to get things flowing Don't get me wrong, I'm doing great. My workout outs are great, in fact, I just started a new challenge for the Month of May called the "Make Fat Cry 30 Day Challenge" and let me tell ya.... it was cryin' this morning for sure. There was actual proof when I looked down and saw a huge puddle of my own sweat!! Too much info? Sorry... that's just the way it is!! Good things happen to those who sweat.... For reals!
*Side Note* the challenge is totally awesome and I am just participating in it, I have nothing to do with it but I totally recommend it.... did I mention it was free?? What can you lose? When I signed up, I figured I'd get some good info from it but I have gotten far more. Bree, aka The Betty Rocker, is really awesome, she's extremely motivating and she does this to help out folks like me who are trying to get into shape. The registration is only open thru May 7 (that would be tomorrow)... so check out her page on FB or her website: thebettyrocker.com, there is a link to the challenge page and instructions on how to sign up.
Anyway, my eating has been decent but there is something that has been lacking and we can't seem to get it pin-pointed (not for lack of trying). Apparently, I'm just one of those people who struggles and it doesn't come off as easily as it does on some people. Does that bother me? Hell Yeah! I'm working my A$$ off here! Is there anything I can do about it? Yep.... education (specifically on nutrition) and keep on keepin' on! I can't quit... no, I WON'T quit. This road has been difficult and frustrating but giving up just is not an option for me. Not only do I do this to make myself better, to make myself healthy and fit, to lose weight/fat/inches ~ but I actually enjoy this!
The scale may not be moving right now but my body fat is definitely lowering (slow and steady) and my measurements seem to be shrinking (a little...finally)... so that's a good thing! I still have a LONG ways to go and I will reach my target at some point. I'm not going to reach the first goal that I set for myself. The wedding is in less than 40 days and I'm not where I would like to be right now but I have to accept that. Sometimes, it's easier said than done... but I just remind myself of JUST how far I have come! Hell, five years ago I was incredibly depressed, had been my heaviest and had just come out of a nightmare of a marriage (but I made it through that). Two years ago, I ended another relationship that to be honest, never should have happened and I refused to travel down an all too familiar path (but I made it through that as well). You know what I've learned? I've learned that I'm a pretty tough cookie...lol. I'm stronger than I thought and with the right people in my life (specifically Sam) that I have learned just how strong I am. We are going to have a beautiful wedding regardless of how much I weigh... we are happy and that is what is most important!
I might not be 140 lbs right now ~ but I will be. I may not be the size that I want to be ~ but I will be. I just have to have faith that all of my hard work and effort will get me to where I need to be. Sure, I am convinced that I would be farther along had I not had to have knee surgery (that really didn't do much good) and unfortunately, there will probably be more in my future but we will cross that when we get there. I have friends who have done a fantastic job and may be farther along in their journey but I am learning that we are all different. We can't compare ourselves to others. My journey began 16 months ago. I have lost 65 lbs and I am proud of that. I can do things that I just didn't think I could ever do. I will continue to focus on my health, on things that are sustainable while I am still enjoying my life because my friends.... Life is Good :)
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