I hear a lot of people with excuses for why they don't work out and why they don't eat healthy.... you can't force anyone to do those things. They have to want it for themselves. And when I say they have to want it.... I mean, they REALLY have to want it! It's tough! Don't get me wrong... I'm not dissing anyone who makes resolutions, that is their choice. We are all different and that's totally ok. What is important is that they are making that choice to make changes in their life and I think that's pretty damn awesome!
I applaud anyone who sets a goal and works towards it. I have set a lot of goals for myself... some of them are still from last year but I have not given up on them. They have just taken longer to achieve.
When I began my journey a couple of years ago, I was ready to make the commitment to myself but I have to admit.... I had no clue how hard it was going to be! I worked and I worked and pushed myself some more to meet the goal I had for myself when we got married last June. Once I did that... I was tired and I slacked off... it happens. But I slacked off too much and now I have to live with the aftermath of that. It sucks... it's really does.
Now.... now is time for the change. I'm ready and my head is in the right place. I have said for quite a while now that I feel as though I have my workout/exercise aspect of things pretty much under control.... Hell, that's the fun part for me! Of course, I'm only human and even I have days where I'm just not "feeling it".... but I do it anyway!
Food is my greatest enemy but I have made up my mind and even when faced with several temptations just this week.... just as I'm getting back on track.... just when it's the hardest. I have been able to say No.... No Thank you. And that feels Damn Good!
Sure.... it's not always that easy and I totally believe it's ok for a treat..... As Long as it is planned and not spur of the moment. It's those spur of the moment things that hurt me and will put my in a bad place. You know what I mean.... It usually goes like this:
Hey Lori, How about some __ (fill in the blank)___?
Oh thank you.... I shouldn't.
Oh come on.... one little piece won't hurt.
Well, ok. Thanks.
This leads to me thinking to myself:
Well, I already had one.... one more won't hurt either
It's a cycle... an ugly cycle and I'm tired of it. This week, I have passed up junk food (multiple times) AND Starbucks..... did you hear me? I said Starbucks! That's right..... that's how serious I am! I have my food for the day logged and I have just so much wiggle room and I don't want to blow it on something that I'm not thinking through here. Sure, at some point, I'm sure I may say, "sure".... and that's ok.... but not today. Not right now.
