It was one year ago today.... one year ago that I woke up and life as I knew it would change. Did I have any idea what would happen? Did I have any idea what I was getting myself into? Did I have any idea what the heck I was doing? The answer to all of those questions was not just no but "Hell No".
As I have said any other posts, I had a moment in my life that I decided I was fed up with the way I was living. I woke up one cold December morning and decided to take my life back into my hands and make some changes.... that date was one year ago today.
In the past year, I have seen weight come off, weight go back on, I have worked the proverbial "blood, sweat and tears", I have been benched because of knee surgery but the one thing that has remained has been my dedication and persistence. Losing weight feels amazing.... however months and months of plateau - NOT so much! The "old me" would have quit a long time again, especially when I hit a plateau or when I started gaining weight. It's frustrating. It's easy to throw in the towel. It's easy to find the excuses and quit.... but I didn't do any of those things.... and I won't.
I was on a roll when I started my journey a year ago. I was steadily losing weight and that felt Amazing but then I hit a brick wall when I was told I was going to have to have knee surgery. I hated not being able to get into the gym. I actually lost weight the first week or so, despite the fact I was layed-up on the couch but that gradually turned into about 10 lbs of weight gain. I pushed myself before I was ready, I know I did... but anyone on this journey knows that if you're not working and you're not eating right then you're not losing anything... so I started pushing through the pain and just did what I could. Since August, I have maintained my weight. I haven't lost but at least I was maintaining. I was eating alright and doing what I could but I still knew that I needed to change things up. I was tired of being stuck and frustrated.
There is still a lot that I can't do at the gym and I'm taking my time and doing what I can. I'm still not healed, in fact, there are days I don't feel any better off... but I'm not a quitter. I'm determined. I've got a goal.
I am very fortunate to have so many amazing people in my life! I wouldn't be where I am today without their strength and support. Sam is right there at the top of that list. There have been days I have whined, complained and just haven't felt it but he was still right there with me, encouraging me because he has faith in me. I have also met some pretty amazing people online through a community of people who share similar goals and am lucky to have found them. Because of this, I have been working with an amazing group of women, working towards a 30 Day Holiday Challenge... but more importantly, I have gotten back into the groove of where I should be.... I'm actually losing weight again and I can't be happier. Is it hard? Hell yeah, it's hard! Can I do it? Absolutely!!
I've learned that there will be ups and there will be downs. There will be good days and there will be bad days. There will be great weight loss and there will also be days that I slip up and I will enjoy the holidays and special occasions... I'm only human! What is important is that tomorrow is always a new day. What is important is that no matter what, I'm not throwing in the towel. I've been there and I've done that and I've gotta say that even on a very frustrating day now, well that sure as hell beats a day of my past life where I wasn't doing anything at all!!
I am no where near where I want to be but that's ok... that's why this is called a journey. I'm not going to wake up one morning and say "I have reached my goal weight, I'm finished"... it doesn't work that way. It's a journey that I will be on the rest of my life. I will continue to set goals for myself and each day, I will strive to be better than I was the day before.
So here we are, a year later.... a year from the day I decided to change my life for good, a year from the day I decided to do this for myself.... do I have any regrets.... NO, of course not! Have you heard the saying "A year from now, you will wish you have started today?" I cannot express how happy I am that I started my journey a year ago and I can't wait to see where I am a year from today!
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